This room is caving in
I don’t know how much I can hold
I don’t know how much pressure I can take
I have never felt so small

I can’t keep my breaths even
A stone
heavy and cold
Is weighing me down.  

If you want the truth
I’ll tell you quite blankly
I want to dissect myself
every part of myself.  

My eyes are fighting to tell you
the lies that my hips
are hiding, the ones
that my mouth is so eagerly denying.

I have shown restraint 
and I have fought back the darkest demons
I’ve run away from the monsters that were once
unstoppable.

And here I am
in this tiny box
Suffocating
destroying the world I’ve built

The walls need to tumble.
I need to escape
I’ve painted a fantasy
over the reality

My journey is not through
I have miles to go
but tonight I feel as though
the miles behind me,
the ones I have painted over,
will pull me back
and cave me in.