I hold coveted 
a Sol.
My joy and pride 
glowing
illuminating 

I hold it in the darkness
I hold it in fear
and In shame
I hold to me my only
hope. 

and they want it
they want my sol. 

They come to me
and speak so sweetly
such beautiful words
Such a memorable tongue

I overlook the Shadows
and the pangs of fear
i over look my quickened heart
their ugly sneers 
and the whispers to run.

Gently they sing to me
and brush my hair
gaze into my eyes
they seduce me oh so easily.
So that I never see their darkness
their darkness over taking my sol.

It slowly 
envelopes my light.
and I hear their laughter grow

I opened my eyes when I heard…
i opened my eyes and saw their treachery. 
I grabbed my sol
I dug my nails deep into it’s core. 

I tugged 
and pulled
for my only light. 

I screamed at them 
I screamed so loud that they nearly
evaporated. 
and I screamed and shrieked
and it made their ears bleed
and plead for mercy

it was mine
this was mine
My happiness
and they had no right 
no right to steal what is 
mine. 

We struggled.
A battle I could not win
they gave one mightily tug 
and I nearly lost it. 
my Sol. 

I dug my nails in deeper. 
so deep the Sols light 
hidden underneath the nails. 
They just pulled harder. 

A screamed once more.
however this was not in hope
that My Sol would be forgotten
I screamed in pain. 

The Sol was being tugged out from my hands
the light under my nails began to pull
and pull
and pull 
and I screamed as I saw the blood.

I screamed when I saw the blood leak from my nails
and when I felt them bend backwards. 
I never let go. 
I held my Sol tight.
My nails bent and twisted
they dug deep into my flesh.
In agony I sat there. 

Fire was digging into my flesh
and ripping skin
and digging deeper
and Deeper
and I twitched 
and wailed. 

Backwards 
Backwards 
backwards
I won’t let go
this is mine. 

one 
two
three
four, five, six,
seven, eight. nine
Ten. 

Ten nails fell from my hand 
fall to the ground
and in a pool of blood I stand
haunted
and Aching 

My Sol. 
It has vanished.