January 2012
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Anxious Hearts
I can’t be alone anymore. My happiness is dependent On the Presence of Others And a comforting touch.
You don’t get it… I don’t want to come home Only to lie in the dark Only to have my mind’s Unbearable, torturing thoughts agonize me.
I start out stable and then a tiny voice starts to talk and it overanalyzes my life and my friends and slowly she starts to...
December 2011
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Shake shake shake go my hands And the numbness sprints through my veins I know it’s coming I’m getting there My spin clenches and holds its self together. release my limbs slow i’m okay.
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I feel the needles coming through my eyes I can feel the ocean bursting at my lids please assure me love hold back this flood I can feel the shots in my noes And I can feel the air being pushed back into my stomach I feel it coming I know it’s there please don’t let me live like this. kill me
Kilme
please forgive me I need you to forgive me I need this so much I need it I can’t live inside my skin right now I need it to escape And I know no one understands but I can’t keep going So it’s either me or my emotions i don’t know how it feels anymore And I’m getting nervous but I know how good I’ll feel after I just need you to forgive me
I’m so fucking...
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My body feels like pins and needles I can’t feel my throat Only the air it’s pushing into my stomach I just want security but I have none And I guess I’ll never know. Love me love me pull the air out my stomach Don’t let me be afraid it was so long ago Don’t look but remember what happens when you ignore Remember where you were And what happened but you can’t...
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Don’t give in Resist the urge hold the fire in your bones Don’t listen to the world just hold your heartache in your blood Don’t relapse It’s only 5 months Keep your breathing steady Hold the screams under your skin Clench your fist It’s not that bad Close your eyes Hold it in.
November 2011
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I keep trying to be warm But I can’t make my bones stop aching I’m cold and lost and so alone alone by my own decisions. I want to tear these walls down. Tear these memories down. but even then I won’t be satisfied and I just want to be happy. but that’s not an option happiness was never an option.
October 2011
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Force Me
I’m a fighter and you know I am. battle scars are crested in my skin. But, I’ve reached a point where they they’re just wear and tear. Not Something that bleeds and feels. i’ve reached a peace which has ultimately lead to chaos. I can’t feel anymore. And I wear myself to the bone and try to perfect everything I touch and actually try to make myself sad enough to...
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hold me still
I want to bleed. but I can’t. I want to climb a high tree and let my skin catch on loose branches And I want my palms to feel the bark tear their soft skin apart.
I want to sit on top the highest branch to kiss they sky and look at my sweet louisiana with utter disdain and anxious breath.
As I sit I want to feel my cuts spread open I want to feel humid air tunnel through my veins I want...
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You could say I was sleepy
My eyes are so heavy they weigh my lids down like anchors in the sea I can barely function
I don’t remember what inner peace is. I don’t remember how to communicate or how to dress I am an infants mind
Sometimes I just want to cry or scream whichever works but really, I just want to sleep
I want to look into your changing eyes and know I’m doing something right that I’m...
August 2011
6 posts
I'm reading all this and thinking:
What the fuck. Seriously. You never loved him he treated you like dirt why the hell is half of you’re poetry dedicated to him? I need to stop writing about guys. seriously.
Best gift I have ever received.
My freshman year, My friend Aimee (who you can find here: www.ohmysol.tumblr.com) kept telling me that she was working on a gift for me. i waiting a really long time and it was fucking worth it. This is what she gave me:
this is a book. however when you open it she glued all my poetry at the time inside of it and made little backgrounds (that must of taken her forever),
I love it so...
I've decided that half of the poetry on here...
so I’m making a separate account soon.
I’m rewriting the ones I was super proud of on there an I’m just going to put what I think my best is.
I’ll still keep this blog and post everything on here.
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come with me lets get dizzy with the sight of a passing train We’ll smile and laugh with the taste of imported ceylon on our lips.
I want to feel the train rumble through my bones and I want to carry the feeling everywhere I go. I want to remember driving around this stupid town I want to remember laughing while the sun goes down.
I need to get out of here. but I want to come back to...
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Pale Blue
pale blue crawl through my window spot the ground with your light grasp my stares and remind me of the peace you bring.
Remind me of when we first met on the shore line near the sea remind me of the moments we shared when everyone was asleep
bring me back to the sea and the calm wind let me feel the foreign air in my lungs. let me close my eyes and see the city lights.
Let me yearn for...
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Lightning Nets
lock us in the back of your car and sing to me off key look at me with starry eyes Tell me it’s alright.
lean on me and stare out the windows watch the lightning make nets in the sky Lighting up are darkest fears watch it cage us in the moment.
With exciting laughs we’ll watch the clouds roll opening up the stars’ oasis Connect them for me and give them names Sing to me...
July 2011
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A Poem for Caylee Anthony
You fade away with the scent of chloroform and dream yourself into darkness. You are forced to separate yourself from the living. You fall asleep in comfort and awake in darkness. cold, wet darkness.
You watch your mother’s lies and brutal accusations. you watch the woman that once cradled you glare at the people who loved you the most. You feel her cold, pitiful stares and burn...
June 2011
2 posts
To Hannah
Why does God give mortals a power only he should posses? by molding our hands and sparking our ideas he has bestowed upon man what some say is a great power and others consider a great curse.
You are playing God my friend. what a heavy role to play darkness dangles from your finger tips. it looms around bullets and twists inside rope.
Sweet hannah you hold your life cupped in your hands. ...
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This room is caving in I don’t know how much I can hold I don’t know how much pressure I can take I have never felt so small
I can’t keep my breaths even A stone heavy and cold Is weighing me down.
If you want the truth I’ll tell you quite blankly I want to dissect myself every part of myself.
My eyes are fighting to tell you the lies that my hips are hiding, the...
May 2011
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Fuck you.
With tears in my eyes I want to say to you my darling Dear, Fuck you.
WIth a crimson crusted razor on my bed I say to you I’m better than this. Please sail away into the deep blue and never turn back to look. Never remind yourself of me.
I will be right behind you though whispering softly come back to me Haunt me more.
In everything you see I hope my image is placed. I hope your...
March 2011
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Sol
I hold coveted a Sol. My joy and pride glowing illuminating
I hold it in the darkness I hold it in fear and In shame I hold to me my only hope.
and they want it they want my sol.
They come to me and speak so sweetly such beautiful words Such a memorable tongue
I overlook the Shadows and the pangs of fear i over look my quickened heart their ugly sneers and the whispers to run.
Gently...
February 2011
2 posts
Rose Bud
Rose Bud in my hand it peels open to greet the sun so bright It illuminates the surroundings with its pale, pale white
Hello Beautiful Welcome Give us hope Give us something to strive for Stay Beautiful
Day by day the petals unfold til one day the petals go cold Blood Seeps through The pale, pale white Highlighting it’s veins and erasing it’s glow
Sorrow falls down and erases the...
I'm sorry
I’m so brain-dead stressed and I have no ideas.
I’ll post a few poems right now actually.
Thanks for sticking with me <3
January 2011
2 posts
for what is light when there is no shadows?
I am so pale and So sickly from standing in the Shadows of brilliance I am so tiny and so frail my fingers quiver and my voice is small I’m on the outside so distant so cold I push through thousands of bodies and yet i am alone. in their eyes I see nothing. I see exotic colors deep browns glistening blues I see people in their eyes. In the black circle I see love i see Dialated...
Dust
I live in the dust of the Momentum of my friends fabulous lives.
I am choking from the dust that accumulates Suffocating in the air I breath
the dust hides me only baring my sillouhette proof of matter A pure waste of matter and nothing more.
I want to scream I want to yell until My lungs shrivle up, I want to ask them… “please don’t forget me”
But I am hidden in...
December 2010
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Silver Tears
Too afraid to record the aches praying for memories to fade and for me to be numb apathy sounds so sweet it’s melody lures me how Could I reach such a state when I dwell on nothing but this ache
I’m just the third wheel to your fabulous life. Too sad for your upbeat world Too weak to chase dragons with you Too emotional to possibly feel joy with what is given.
In the corners...
November 2010
4 posts
It’s strange when you’re in the midst of it… Death I mean. When you walk into his precence… you never forget it. almost like he’s taunting you.
See the future in tiny fragments of time. you know he’s the one Deep in the iris of greens and browns you see you see what is meant you know
I want to run away and buy a house
A cozy one, not a big one. and I want it to be freezing- so that at night instead of running the heaters and wasting money me and you can lay under a mountain of quilts with our bodies tangled and laugh and kiss until we fall asleep. Then we’ll wake up and smile and I’ll just go on living knowing that every night I won’t have to fall asleep alone like I have for so many years, I’ll be laying...
The Heart of the Betrayed
You are dealing with the heart of the betrayed. The heart of the broken. The heart you’ll get rid of. For the vines of envy overcome even the strongest of loves I see through the eyes of the jealous Be they true or be they lies I see what they please I love you so, oh please know. My heart is dying Dying not of death But of betrayal It sees you as the final blade let it be wrong...
October 2010
3 posts
Reciting the most beautiful poems only to be heard by what lurks at night and to be forgotten by daylight Just stare kindly through the day with care that your eyes don’t make the wrong impression He stares back into emptiness One you can’t explain smile and glance away no one will ever know.
I don't even know what to consider this
where are the lies in the Iris of his eyes? the iris so beautiful shades of green and golden brown mix and blend to the center sucking me in ever so sweetly.
in bed
This bed is nothing without you Where are you hiding? It’s too late for games, time to hold me to your chest and caress me to sleep we will grow old our molds will take shape in the bed and if I die before I wake I thank the Lord for the final night The final night I had wrapped in your arms.
September 2010
10 posts
They
they comes by moonlight They wakes me up they makes me scream They confuses me by day They is in his eyes in our eyes They distracts me during class time they follows me in the bathtub They stains the tub They comes They goes They makes me weep they makes me scared They wraps me in comfort They follows me around They follows us all they is what makes us They is us
(I wrote this poem like I would...
Fade
I just want to fade Be sucked up by darkness hide where no one can see A silent observer Feel the vibrations of footsteps Hear the world move on Just let me fade
I built my world on pity A empire of lies Just waiting to collapse It’s time for Rome to fall I will reside in its ashes It is where I’ve always belonged It was where I once was Where my empire was built Where I hid for so...
projectjad:
Your answer intrigues me…. But I don’t understand what you mean. This should be fun.
Question to all my brilliant followers...?
You needed to write a love poem. but you can’t make it cliche
how would you write it? or I mean, what would you do to make it different?
Why Sept. 11th?
We had to take words and phrases from this one article about September 11th and compose them into a poem.
carefully coordinated Flight 11 United 175 United 93 Shouting “we’re being hijacked” Armed with knifes The planes crashed 266 dead Crashed into North Tower Plowed into South Tower Hellish storm Ash, glass, smoke Parts of buildings, crushed cars 9:50 10:29 Tower suddenly vanished Collapsing...
So guys, Today is September 11th
Take a little time out of your day to remember what happened 9 years ago today. Today is the day that 4 planes were taken over- two hit the world trade center, one hit the pentagon, and one crash landed in Pennsylvania.
266 people died on the planes 3,000 people died total.
I still don’t REALLY know what happened…but if it was our government or Al Queda it doesn’t make a...
Addio
goodbye. it’s about time This heartache needed to subside. I’m never going to forget you. You’ll be the one I swore I loved. The one who broke my heart the worst The one I couldn’t get over And the one who Continued to rip me to shreds.
Everything reminds true but not for you For the person that I thought was you. I’ll miss his smile, I’ll miss his eyes...
The Tiny Little Stick Girl.
(insight: I like to draw two stick figures with a rain cloud above. I draw the rain drops then smudge them…and underneath there is a boy and girl stick figure and the boy is holding the girl and umbrella….sometimes I leave the girl alone in the rain with no umbrella…)
tiny little stick girl Caught in the rain your lines will surely fade… Tiny little stick boy Holding a...
Just turn it up
Just turn it up, Play it loud let my screams drown Louder louder Make the base shake earthquake Let the music fill every corner and go through every crack. Just turn it up Make sure you can’t hear me make sure you can only see my lips moving not matching Just turn it up Bust my ear drums and just let the music beat match your heart’s Escape Just turn it up
Heavy Rain
Heavy rain fall down and cleanse me. explode on my skin run through my hair bring me to life. I’ve been so numb all I can feel is heavy rain Kiss my lips then drip to my feet make me feel alive you know my soul is so dead bring me comfort they couldn’t drown me in the tears of the heavens I need to feel you.
August 2010
2 posts
By Hannah Gilbert
If I could stand on top of a mountain, maybe then you would see me. Maybe seeing wasn’t the hard part, looking away just became easy. Was I really nothing? Is that what you think? Tie up my heart tighter, and keep it on your string. Counting every move I make. Counting every breath you take. Can you tell me why these hands must shake? Now Im contemplating if I should stay. Im contemplating...
Lay to Sleep
Just remember that he’s the one who tore you down re-read the past you know it didn’t last it couldn’t last Lay to sleep and hope dreams will lift you to where you were before the sorrow filled your eyes. Hope you don’t wake up to these head aches hope your heart won’t ache when you wake.
all your mind needs to know is what he feels when he wakes. or the...
July 2010
14 posts
breaking mirrors
What have I become? my eyes swirl with temptation and desire I hold my innocence like a glass mirror One I’m dying to crack. one I’m dangling by a thread I come so close, only to be stopped by a former me, she breaks through the swirls in my eyes and holds my gaze she smiles and reminds me what happens when you break a mirror what happens when you’e not ready the swirls then...
victorious
I crave the impossible I want the highest apple I know how this ends but I’m still willing to climb the tree, I’m willing to risk the bruises and the scars cause it’s all I want, not only for happiness but to show the world that I can climb that tree that I can do the impossible that no matter how many labels or how far down I’m put on their list I’m victorious.
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Your words are just so beautiful.
Your words are just so beautiful.
Hespith's Poem from Dragon Age: Origins
“First day, they come and catch everyone. Second day, they beat us and eat some for meat. Third day, the men are all gnawed on again. Fourth day, we wait and fear for our fate. Fifth day, they return and it’s another girl’s turn. Sixth day, her screams we hear in our dreams. Seventh day, she grew as in her mouth they spew. Eighth day, we hated as she is violated. Ninth...
Fools Gold
Hypocrisy is her latest trend faux wisdom and complete lies Cover the inexperience in shadows. You’re doing to all wrong You’re with her all wrong exchange your words for other words with lesser meaning extract your heart from the word extract your feelings pretend they don’t exist
Dress yourself with her wisdom walk past flaunting what you’ve found You think...